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complacency serves you well i wish all could learn of you your laissez-faire disposition in such a time of competition you know yourself so well you have bad times and make the best of them if everyone could make your same decisions but changing people is not your mission the masses scrieving to make ends meet but you're carefree and fill your basic needs tolerant, but aggressive where confrontation lies you are a hero in my eyes -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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A clock, a track of time Belonging to me, but never mine The past, it fades away To find its rain on sunny days Life, it flies by me Seeming like it will never cease Yesterday, 'Tommorrow's not far from here' Let the brand new day stay sincere What happened to today Yes it seems, time has drifted away -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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since the first crawl from my mother's womb, i have not been able to be confided to a room exploration, my thirst to know fidgets my soul and i must go and i will keep searching, until i find what i am looking for -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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do you believe in life after life i'll tell ya, time after time you do line after line spending dime after dime you're ruining your life treat your life like a game and you will go insane eating your brain your mother is praying you're ruining your life
so easy to lose it it's your life death awaits if you choose it -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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your honesty is blatant lies smiling lips trusting eyes faucet fresh your hands are clean take off the mask know you're a fiend give it up fall off your wagon check you in shoulder's sagging -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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a waterfall of sweat pours down my forehead into my eyes the loud noises fall into the background and eventually hear them no more my heartbeat my shoes the ball i cease breathing and all of my concentration is focused on winning four second count the ball is inbounded six heartbeats four steps i am passed to jump and the defender blocks my shot four heartbeats three steps recovery i pull back on a single foot launch i find myself in a movie this is unreal front of the rim to the back and the ball rolls out bouncing to the floor the buzzer echoes i feel the scream inside but hold back the tear i walk to the locker room head down the others' spirits are high a fellow player pats me on the shoulder 'cheer up, we won' i remained silent 'maybe you'll get to play again' i held back the tear again i lost no one understands what it is like to be last string -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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I saw him crying in the park today I told him he shouldn't have a frown He told me kids grow up too fast these days And no one is enthused by a clown I reminded him to put the gun away It scared me and the kids at play He had threatened to commit suicide Going out just the way his father died Do you wanna repeat history It all seems like a mystery Life stacks up to what we cannot be The clown nodded his head and agreed.... -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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If a negative and a negative are a positive Then how come two wrongs don't make a right? You try your fucking hardest in the world today And you just might slip on by I try to tell myself That it will work itself out, That I will prosper in the end . . . I will succeed I will succeed I'll show you all a thing or two When my turn is up I will prove it Because I make a difference too I will succeed I will succeed (so fuck you) -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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are you lost or lonely your ignorance is killing me some can't see it but it stares right through me you need to wake up to reality you have no personality you have something to share but it's not yours develop some ideas buy yourself a clue don't follow around others walk in your own shoes -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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another day at the office another night on the town a lonely night in bed, without a smile or a frown another silent moment during a time of rest reflecting on memories, of when i did my best another day at the office the clock strolling by just waiting for friday, waiting on time -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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only sometimes every now and then or when i get the urge so maybe not today only sometimes when it rains heads or tails if she looks my way only sometimes i don't know when look ahead of time what's holding me back when i get the chance i'll wait a minute more patience is a virtue but only sometimes -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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He drives a car with no rearview mirror He doesn't look behind to see if anyone's there He takes his life to see what's left An urn of ashes and a space in his chest No one carried on his family name Living his days, questioning if he's sane An empty household and tall grass in the yard Once happy, wrinkle free - his smile now hard Counting the days, waiting to get ill Asking to be taken by his angel Prayers go unanswered His heart grows emptier A man once of faith Cries tears full of hate The world went on and left him Leaving him sitting alone A drive into the ocean will put him at ease And he'll be carried away by a salty breeze Then he'll be swept away to a niche in the sky It is his turn to say goodbye -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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free your thoughts get in touch with my disease lay back in your chair put your mind at ease apathetic view of life it's not a choice to make mind not focused eyes drifted into space mediocre way of life just getting by once wasted youth now passing time -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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*to my parents and all of those who have helped me in my life teach me lifejust teach me half but don't preach nonsense or i'll have to laugh i just need some help i'll figure out the rest show me how i can be my best give me your guidelines tell me the rules so i don't wind up being the fool i'll try to colour inside the lines and not become a waste of life hearing your praise is a wonderful sound i'll try not to let you down -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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* for Danielle why don't you smilewhen will you drop the frown there is nothing serious that should be bringing you down maybe it's that teen angst that has you in depression the stupid little mind game that's put your life in regression what you don't believe in can hurt you just the same and not knowing who your friends are will inflict internal pain because who can trust you when you refuse to trust yourself are you afraid of others relating to what you've felt oh but "it's not easing being you" well it's not easy being me do you think there is anyone out there living completely happy you seem so certain it can't get any worse well it seems you've given yourself the teen angst curse in the garden of life the wind blows rapidly and it's shaking leaves off the memory tree you had better grow up and you'd better think fast because how you mold yourself now will determine how long you last -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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a quick fix for the times i've fucked up a minute of pleasures for the day that sucked take advantage of my vulnerabilities my want exceeds my need a quick sip for the one's who've brought me down a large gulp for the ones who've stuck around tomorrow i won't remember your name these minutes of passion relieve the pain a quick fuck for the pleasing of the mind an act of desperation to pass the time tomorrow morning take some aspirin and pretend i'm doing fine -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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what are you giving to the world i look at you, i see a stupid girl you have no interests of your own you adapt to your surroundings, you're just a clone so what are you really worth you're just taking up space on planet earth an anti-social, political being an oxymoron is all i'm seeing it's "filler" like you that get me pissed in my little book you won't be missed become someone or shoot yourself because your current existence is hazardous to my health -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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if your opinion mattered to me maybe i'd ask you for it but until that day comes you'll know where you can stick it stop while you're behind you're just another thorn in my side i'm just gonna ignore you this time because i don't wanna listen to you whine if only closed minds came with closed mouths i wouldn't have to sit and listen to your shit so many ideas you didn't formulate yourself but you act as if you did "if only closed minds came with closed mouths" line coined by Nicole Aitoro, Sassy Magazine 1990 -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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six am wake up to an alarm skip breakfast it's time to go to work wonder where the days go wear the cleanest smelling shirt twelve pm lunch is rather cheap it flies by in time for the afternoon wonder where the days go hoping to be promoted soon five pm time to go home television is starting to get old wonder where the days go adjust the temperature it's starting to get cold eight pm another wasted night this is the last time eating dinner from a can wonder where the days go in want of someone to understand midnight strikes the clock seems like it is all just deja vu wonder where the days go another single person sleeps just like you -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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when you look down at your hands and you're holding a smoking gun do you put it in your pocket and quit while you've won when the burden is on your shoulders and you're mind is on overload do you push aside you problems the trick you've always known do you close the door behind you do you stop to say please do you go to church on sunday do you fulfill your basic need when life is overwhelming and the answer's in arms reach do you reach out for the cure and give it what you need when the day is almost over and the clock is ticking by do you sweat until it's time or do you loosen up your tie you've got some quirks about you and the walls are closing in all eyes follow your motions do you lose or do you win -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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she's a vegan, her name is jenny she has some friends but not too many jenny wears leather-soled shoes so naive and confused thinks she knows it all at twenty-two she goes to college, she studies fine arts she feels so dumb, in high school she was so smart jenny claims she's socialist hates capitalism and she's rich brainwashed by academia bullshit she has a boyfriend, his name is john he can't figure out what the hell she wants he says it's love but he fucks around jenny's apathetic deep down but likes him because he's success-bound and the world goes on around her as she stays in her own she'll appreciate these times some day down the road -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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a dedication for you a day all your own to reflect on the past and to see how you've grown the mistakes you've made the lessons you've learned the times you won and the days you burned those you've known since you were a child and the things you've done to make it all worth while and remember on this day those you've scarred and those who helped you when times were hard and know on this day of those who care because i am one and my love i share -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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it came to me a realization i accepted it without hesitation and now that i think about it there's no way i'd ever doubt it it doesn't defy intellect or logic i cherish it it keeps me honest -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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the weekend's last hour hits before sunday night tv another friday, saturday, sunday pass, they were spent delightfully back to the grind of daily reality where days are worked and nights are slept and it goes continuously i don't think much of living for weekends it's not the life for me it's up to you to do what you want don't try for my pity so many people go through life without realizing they have control you are a sovereign human being and separate from the whole -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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she'll fuck anyone to make herself feel beautiful she has yet to learn that life is not a musical she goes to school makes good grades has a job but mom pays most of the way she cries all night whines to me attends counciling 'cause she has no self-esteem she'll tell lies to make herself seem interesting she'll say anything to get a little sympathy she wonders why she's depressed all the time a few pounds overweight and does not exercise takes prescription drugs, but they don't help she stopped trying and wallows in her own hell she'll spend her weekends feeling sorry for herself and all this negativity is so bad for her health she feels trapped no where to go so she blends in and follows the flow some day she'll learn i hope she will and maybe then she'll follow her own free will -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |
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it starts with panic then she goes manic how do i control a zero gravity fire it spreads, it burns i extinguish it, it returns how do i control this wayward descending spire cut off all her oxygen do it before the fire starts again that's how i control her zero gravity fire -Derek del Barrio <derek.delbarrio@gmail.com> |